I wanted to make sure that I would graduate in 3,5 years from law faculty.

I wanted to make sure that I would never get a “C” score at any subject.

I wanted to make sure that I would always get 3,5 or above in every semester.

I wanted to make sure that I would get that cum-laude title.

But then God called me to do something precious in my campus and it costed me much time in which I failed to manage. It wasn’t God’s fault, it was definitely mine. I had to let go that big desire to finish my degree in 3,5 years. I got C+ in two subjects and it broke my heart. I got below 3,5 in my fourth and fifth semester.

Thank God, I am still a cum-laude graduate.

But honestly, in my very genuine opinion, I learned so many things when I answer to that calling. I don’t regret anything despite every tiredness, heart-broken, even those things I failed to make sure.

The most beautiful thing I learned, I just need to be sure in my faith to Jesus Christ. Full stop.